unfold

Well...
You DONE DONE me,and you bet i felt it...


But if you ask me
The feeling that I'm feeling is overwhelming
And oh, it goes to show there's so much to know

I wrote this for my prettiest friend while i'm trying not to prove that I care.
I was trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away.
She can't see she's making me crazy now and I don't believe she knows she's amazing how; She has me holding my breathe, so I'd never guess that I'm a none such unsuitable, suited for her .

And if you ask me, the feeling that I'm feeling is complimentary.
And it goes to show the moral of the story is boy loves girl and so on.
But the way it unfolds is yet to be told.

I know that I should be brave, even pretty can be seen by the blind.
I know that I cannot wait until the day we finally learn how to find each other
redefining open minds.

oh love, it's a brittle madness.
Inevitably it still exists, pale and fine I can't dismiss.
I won't regret and if I die, well at least I tried.

Hands in line, arms close to my side.
i'm fighting tides of an ocean's undertows and i figure that i might not make it out.

I'm taking empty, seldom speaking.

...

Have you ever wonder, what is going on around when there is nobody to turn to.

Apa mimpimu?

tanya pada pokok, apa sebab goyang
nanti jawab pokok angin yang goncang
tanya sama langit apa sebab hujan
nanti jawab langit tanye lah awan

Awan nanti kata aku kandung air
Sampai tempat sejuk aku pun cair
tengok dalam air nampak bayang-bayang
campak satu batu bayang pun hilang

Tanya sama hati apa asal sayang
Adakah tandanya nampak dipandang
Kumbang rayu bunga, bulan dan bintangnya
Punya tanda-tanda hubungan mesra

Tanya sama hati pernahkah merindu
Ingat masa lena apa mimpimu
Masa berjauhan apa nan dikenang
Bila difahamkan itulah sayang

Jikalau tidak kerana sayang
Kuntuman kasih tak mungkin kembang
Andainya jemu mengganti rindu
Jambangan mesra tentulah layu

Patience

One by one they will go eventually.
Eventually they will leave us with memories.
Memories that are everlasting yet it hurts.

Take care.

suke...???

Be grateful for this moments...

Ohooooii...Hoooiiiiii

Duhai rembulan dengarkanlah
rintihan ku ini
dari hari ke hari
siang malam bersilih ganti
walaupun tak pernahku
temui cahaya mentari
andainya ku bermimpi usah biarku bermimpi
kau kejutkan aku dari mimpi ngeri

rindu rindu hati ku rindu...
rindu nak temu kasih yang satu
rindu pada bulan purnama
pada dindaku oh... amira.

Hari ini... Esok... dan seterusnya

Yesterday, had went by pretty fast.
Maybe the real answer is bare,
right in front of me.

The defining moments were there.

Should i stay patient...

But for how long?

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Biarlah...
Hanya meniti hari meneliti hati

Yang tulus ikhlas
Ingin sekali sekala dirinya dibalas
Walau hanya dengan dakapan di angin lalu

Yang selalu memberi
Ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima
Cukup dengan salam dan manis doa

Selamat ulang tahun sayang
Kini kau bersayap, pergilah terbang
Rentaslah langit cita cita mu
Harap nanti kita ‘kan bertemu

After the 11th seconds, the song starts...

As if it was the Last straw

Suddenly, i feel so weak.
My mentality isn't right for a now.
I just feel like backing out from all this Lies.
From how it was started last few weeks to how it is define tomorrow.

(Issue)
We strive for what we believe in our team respectively.
I understand that, maybe i should have react in a better way.
I know, i never show enough to appreciate you,
Nor did i treated you fairly.
Let me humble myself
Look me down and put me down if you must.
There's nothing left of me but you...

Do whatever you please but please don't leave
I need you right now.
You were the backbone of my spirits
that lead me into what i lead the team NOW.

Your outburst was a wake up call
I should have expected long ago.
I'm really feeling guilty for what happen.

Apologizing doesn't matter anymore
because of the things i used to say.
I'm guilty for this. I'm guilty for what i used to say.
I guess that was what you meant from
"hold on to your words cause talk is cheap".

Truthfully,
I don't mind listening to your rants
and stresses everyday, because everytime...
i hope to give the best advices i could in order to create a better space for you.
Just for you and only you.

Right here, right now
I need you to lift up this spirits that is fading away.
For this soul doesn't feel like competing.
For some reasons, he thinks that he has already lose it.
For some reasons, he feels that he's honour is gone.

This plan has been the center of the turmoil.
From the percussion issues,
To how the words were end up in place.
The tunes we made up.
I feel bad for doing this.
Seems like a stealing job.

So...
I'm Left with only A Day.
A Day to define the rest of my Life...
I wouldn't know how it would turn out.
It could be bleak or a saving grace.

There's a lot of things i'm sacrificing.
A lot of things on the line.
My Love, My Honour, The Team's Honour...

To be continued...
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No matter what the outcome is,
I have to be strong to pass this by.
I'm not hoping, Let's leave this to what Fate has in store.
Let's walk the walk, and talk the talk.
I'm mentally drained...

Biarkan, ia Berlalu.
Hentikan lah seksa diri ini
Sampai kan doa, kirim selalu
Itu yang perlu...

Damai... di mana

Titisan air mata, yang jatuh kebumi
Tersirat seribu erti
Hanya kelembutan jari mu yang menutup melindungimu
Derup angin mengusap rambutmu
Ibarat ibu yang kau peluk
Tapi sampai bilakah ia kan jadi temanmu

Dengarlah hati yang selama ini yang ku cari masih tiada penganti
Bila ohh bila, Bilakah ia kan berakhir, bila ia kan terhenti ???

Dirimu ibarat sehelai kain putih yang hanyut dipadang tandus
Tiada bezanya kau umpama dahan yang sedang merentung
Keringat yang mengalir dari umbunmu bak setitis salju
Oh Tuhan, Kau kurniakanlah damai dan petunjuk mu

tak sudi, takpe

Biarlah aku meratapi nasib dalam deritaan aku.
Memang tiada siapa yang sudi mendengar cerita cerita sedih.
Raut wajahnya sahaja sudah cukup untuk memberi gambaran tentang perasannya.
Sudah lah, ape guna bertengkar dan bergaduh kalau tak dapat sesuaikan diri.

Kecewa tetap kecewa
difikir fikir kan lagi, tambah kecewanya lagi.
Boleh jadi gila.

Nak kate tak ade, zahir nye ade
Nak kate ade, mcm takde.
The saddest conclusion i could think of for now is that,
i'm with the wrong person.(after much consideration)
Maybe we should go our separate ways.
Idea paling bagus.
This heart doesn't feel BELONG to any.
though it is still inclined for someone.

hmmm... biarlah.
Got home by bus and met my old primary school girl
whom i used to seat next to her in class.
Used to be berisi, but rather slim now.
Lawa oi !!! at least, something to cheer about. haha

maybe i need your help... but you turn me off

Oooo... hellooo....

i'm fine.
no not really that fine.
i'm getting sensitive.
you should know why.

its part of my trait.
it kills me inside
though i'm not showing/telling.
don't force me,
cause i'll resist.

you know i'm weak.
you know i don't retaliate
and you took full advantage of it.

It was meant to be a joke,
in terms of what you think.
It wasn't meant to be,
for what i believe.

Very manipulative you tend to be.
to the people around me,
closest to me,
dearest to me.

you attempted to jeopardize my honour,
at first.
you attempted to jeopardize my relationship,
Now.

Is it meant to be a joke,
Is that 'best of friends' in terms of what you think?

My girl,
it gets even harder to hold on to you
as the days past.

Words from others,
tend to be the most trusting for you.

i'm losing myself with this temper i rage.
Yet not a single has stood by for their assistance.
All i get is just a blissful silence from everyone.

There's no doubt that more challenges are standing my way.
No way can i object to it.
Doubts after doubts.
It will come to me eventually.

Baby,
this relationship,
i guess has become
more of a stalemate
rather than a helping hand.

I'd rather forget this.
Thanks to all the ugly bastards
that just cause a headache.

I should have known.
If i was a burden to you,
Fine...
You don't have to tell the whole world that you have to send me
when all this while you were not willing to do so.

Please inform me to go back on my own
if its troublesome for you.
Say no if you can't,
i didn't force you either.

Nine one one

Buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih,
Baru teguh peribadi.

Dahulu tak kenal, maka tak tau.
Kini sudah dijamah, baru tahu perbezaan pahit dan manis

Sebal, serik, sayu.
Begitu hati mengeluh.

Hampa, hina, hancur.
Begitu jasad menyusur.

Biar terus meniti hidup bersendiri
Kerana kedatangan dan kepulangan kita juga sendiri.

Tiada teman yang mengikut, hanya ilmu
Yang dapat menolong dan melindungi.

What's Left ?

Benarkah salahku ???
Kau duga egoku, fahami diriku begini
Tiada yang sama yang pasti kita semua bebeza,Kau fikirlah...

Tiada guna cipta sebuah cerita kalau kisah kita sementara.
Rasa hati dan langkahmu membuat ku keliru

Now what?

I change my mind.
I'd rather not commit
to a relationship that is
one sided.

The sensitive mind
is too easy to be manipulated.
Small little things around
is too distracting.

Is that all there is...
Go ahead, be gone with it.

Fine, Thank you !!!

Hmmm......

Am i okay, shout it at my face???
Tell me.
Are my eyes still blinking or
is it just staring aimlessly.

I'm not losing myself,
Yes, i insist i'm not losing myself.

The mind is corrupted
Corrupted by the endless
accusation and judgement
of what people think i ought to be.

Well... mind you,
Who do you think you are ?
Tell me !

Aurora

Aurora oh Aurora,
Pentingkah, kamu itu ?
Kenapa aku terbeku ?

Aurora oh Aurora,
Terlalu disanjungi
Telah di tanya, mengapa?

Kutatap berseri berwarna hijau
Yang menawan sanubari

Walaupun jauh
Kamu dekat di hati.
Pandang aku menanti mu
Aurora kamu memberi, kembali mencari

Aurora oh Aurora,
Dari manakah kamu?
Kekal kamu sungguh jauh.

Aurora oh Aurora,
Tidak ada bunyimu
Sanggup aku tetap menunggu

Terdiam kerana berwarna ungu
Kuputuskan biar bisu

Malam ini aku sendiri
Menumpu langit sambil berkata
Gembira kamu di sana...

Dah masuk time da...

Brain Brain !?!
i wish you have some function to think.
Cos i can't start thinking of what to write
when i'm at the 'new post' page.

Don't start thinking when i'm about to sleep.
Cos i makes me insomnia.
Brain Brain,
i guess you're functioning at a different time zone......

WRONG TiMING ErrOR

Carrying On...

Attachment!!!Attachment!!!Attachment!!!

A recap of what i've done in 2 weeks.

25th May: Morning setup for Aaron's Concert: Rigging
26th May: Video Setup: Projector screen
27th May: Video Setup: Positioning & setup the projectors
28th May: Video Setup: Signal Patching & rehearsel
29th May: Office work
30th May: Stdby & Tdown

1st June: Video Stuffs: Testing the New LED
2nd June: Video Stuffs: Projects
3rd June: PCD LED setup
4th June: Video Stuffs: Projects and Tdown
5th June: Office Work
6th June: Office Work: Parcan cover


Attachment!!!Attachment!!!Attachment!!!

Just found out that JM's got new songs and they're great!!!
Such a talented man he is. Check out his songs.
No wonder I've always been an admirer of him.
Tell me somethin,
Is there anyone that could continuously
produce good songs like he did ???
Not many i guess.

So... Check it out



It's a new song by jason. It's live from the performance at Mueller College of Holistic Studies. Februari 2009
Lyrics:

All bets are off from this point on
Starting now, my interest is gone.
You said I had to be a better friend
But not in a friendly way did you say it
I wont follow demands

It's never too late to start over
I'm givin these bones a try
Wherever is home the heart is
Be glad to be along for the ride

Its never too late
to save the only life you can save


Already gone checked out and borded
Another airplane with an angel
flyin shotgun up into space

And already asleep in a magazine
Nose in the fold of a lucid dream
Ready for walking out on the wings

It's never too late to jump out
I'm teaching myself to fly
I'm willing to hit the ground when

When I decide
It's never too late
to save the only life you can save

Though the road is long
Carry on
carry on

Be a phenomenon

Cary on and on

It's never too late to start
You're never too old to try
Wherever is home the heart is
And my hearts inside

Its never too late to save
the only life you can save

Its never too late to save
the only life you can save

Carry on carry on
Carry on carry on

Mmmm be a phenomenon
Carry on and on




T-shirts and flip-flops... Live on!!!

PURA VIDA!!!

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18 MAY: Office Work: Unpack
19 MAY: Video: Chack Fiber
20 MAY: Video: Check Fiber
21 MAY: Lighting: Dimmer
22 MAY: Lighting: Par-can Prep
23 MAY: Office Work

ATTACHMENT!!!ATTACHMENT!!!ATTACHMENT!!!

This week got Aaron, Next week maybe PCD... Oi PCD la siol!!!

What more ???

ATTACHMENT!!!ATTACHMENT!!!ATTACHMENT!!!

11 May: Unpack from S.I.S concert
12 May: Testing Fiber Cable
13 May: Maintenance
14 May: Setup@Suntec
15 May: Standby
16 May: Meet Lecturer & Teardown@Suntec

ATTACHMENT!!!ATTACHMENT!!!ATTACHMENT!!!

I'm still feeling wasted over the event at Flyer. It was a last minute thing when i was informed that i was replaced for the event and that i had to be at suntec. Fine...

Okay, NDP preparation is heating up. We're probabaly trying hard to keep the goods in good condition. FED UP aarr, FED UP !!!